On Self-Loathing and Gregor’s Labyrinth

“They will love me for that which destroys methe sword in my dreams the dust of my thoughtsthe sickness that breeds in the folds of my mindEvery compliment takes a piece of my soulAn expressionist nagStalling between two foolsThey know nothing –” Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis The stereotype of the tortured artist consists in the … More On Self-Loathing and Gregor’s Labyrinth

How ‘Waking Life’ Helped Me Accept My Chaos

“And on really romantic evenings of self, I go salsa dancing with my confusion.”  -Timothy “Speed” Levitch, Waking Life Waking Life (2001), a relatively hidden cinematic gem, is a movie directed by Richard Linklater. The main character is a young man who passes through life in a dream state, feeling detached from his dreams and … More How ‘Waking Life’ Helped Me Accept My Chaos

The Gendered Influence of Parents on Their Children

A conversation about being raised by parents in a gendered world. Trying to mimic what we saw as well as what we saw being enforced on us. Alexandra: Let me take control of the narrative.On a peculiarly sunny autumn day, a young-looking man steps into the quirkiest bar in Amsterdam, holding the leftover posters he … More The Gendered Influence of Parents on Their Children

Jim Morrison and Control: The Demonization of Natural Instincts

During this Winter Break, I found myself seeking a form of escapism from letting my mind wander too much, as that is its natural reaction to having any free time. Jim Morrison’s spirit took over my brain’s right hemisphere, and enticed me to a Dyonisiac dream of imbibing my synapses with mysterious substances and reaching … More Jim Morrison and Control: The Demonization of Natural Instincts

The Stages of Journaling as Lived by Two Over-thinkers

“Because… even if you’re a philosopher you still need to vacuum. Why? It’s hygiene, man.”  E. I believe we all feel the need to write down our feelings at some point or another in our life. Even people you’d never expect this from. I had only ever seen my mother write down grocery lists and … More The Stages of Journaling as Lived by Two Over-thinkers